Whew it's been a minute - I'm gonna need a cinnamon roll and some time to process everything that's happened since my last post (almost 2 years ago 🤯)! I am currently sitting in the corner of a quaint coffee shop in a small town outside of Cleveland, vibing out to some random Spotify playlist and drinking an overly pretentious lavender, vanilla, oat milk latte. The truth is I have wanted to come back and write so many posts so many times but I always had an excuse or I wasn't in a space where I could pull up my laptop or write down my thoughts (i.e. most of my thoughts seem to happen while I am driving). I told myself over, and over and over that I needed to just sit down and start writing.
But.....now it's as if every great topic or thought or idea or emotion has left my mind and I don't know where to begin. Maybe that's my beginning - I am trying to give myself the time and the space to be creative and vulnerable and that's all it needs to be right now. Or there is some message from the universe telling me I am trying to force connection through writing?
I think I am selling myself short; the last two years have been pretty amazing and my life is completely different on so many levels right now. I really just want to share that story with you and I want to talk about all the other journeys/stories that come up through the process for you and me. There have been a lot of lessons, tears, growing self awareness, embarrassment, ego, regret, excitement, accomplishment, joy, sorrow, love and a ton of awkward ass moments that just need to get out of my head.
Here is a high-level overview of some of the things that happened since March 2021: took a month long, life-changing roadtrip with my sister through the U.S., moved out of Columbus after 20 years, flipped my first house solo & then sold it, moved into what I refer to as my "dorm" room in a house with my brother & sister, healed through the end of a 13 year relationship, turned 40 & threw an awesome party, re-connected with lots of family & friends, have had a ton of adventures, started a new & long distance relationship with a man for the first time in 20 years & had a full blown anxiety attack from it, got certified to be a meditation instructor, logged over 100,000 miles on my car in less than 3 years & learned an absolutely shit-ton about myself.
I thought that was my big transformation and shake up but what I know now is that I am in the process of starting my biggest transition yet. Let me tell you, this is going to be a really, really good one & I might be a bit terrified but I don't want to do it alone so wanna join me?
Love,
The Auryn
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